From the recording Finally
From the album Finally with an older project - The Diction. This song is about the pains of being in a dishonest relationship. It's about when you're with someone for the wrong reasons, whether it be social expectations or expectations you set for yourself.
Lyrics
(Verse 1)
I feel my head pound when you speak to me
My body repels when near you're near me
I spun a tale
To fake my devotion to you
(Pre-Chorus 2)
But I don't believe it anymore
No, I don't believe it anymore
(Chorus)
Is this my punishment
For being dishonest to myself
A constant sense of longing
For somebody else
(Verse 2)
My mind made a loving character
One I could manipulate
I tried to give you power
Pull my strings to keep me in place
(Pre-Chorus 2)
But the truth always points out what is fake
Oh the truth always points out what is fake
(Chorus)
(Bridge)
But I don't believe it anymore
No I can't believe it anymore
(Chorus)
Is this my punishment
For being dishonest to myself
A constant sense of longing
For somebody else